Big Brother is watching!

Well in this case is was more  the Big Sister and she was definitely watching lol..You know when you are in a room full of people and you know you are watched very carefully, especially when the topic comes to something that is near and dear to your heart, well in this case it wasn't dear but it sure was near and I was a little bit nervous about how I would react and feel in that particular training session. Usually I am very good at hiding how I feel and what's going on inside of me, but there are certain things well I just don't seem to be able to get away from without them showing up everywhere in and on me, from body language, to visible nervousness and most definitely in my responses. And I still have the urge to get it out of my system, as it is still stuck there. I knew right from the start that the instructor knew, and since she knew, most of the questions regarding this topic were directed at me and left for me to answer, I surprised myself how much I actually knew lol. A few times I tried to be invisible but it didn't work. (I guess  that's because I was wearing only two hula skirts instead of three and half my ass was showing.). It wasn't that I felt being put on the spot, I just knew that I started to have a hard time not showing my emotions while answering these questions, and I tried hard to adhere  to what our manager had told us all at one of our big meetings. A couple of deep breathes helped to somewhat neutralize the situation, but of course Big Sister didn't miss a thing and she called me on it after the training session was over and we talked for a while about it afterwards.
Thank God that's it for a while for training sessions. The one I was suppose to attend in March, I have been excused from due to other obligations. :) But I will catch up on that one sometime in June with one of the new girls, who I met briefly yesterday, and what a sweetie she is, full of sunny deposition, and according to her boss she is always that way.