Pondering

After the recent tragic and unexpected loss of a family member, I wonder if those horrible thoughts ever really leave you, no matter how much better you think you are, is there one little thing that will transport you right back into the darkness? The event has definitely made me rethink things a little bit more, and I guess I can understand the impact of it more as being on the other side of it. Well I made it past my first year of gloom and doom and I am still standing strong, maybe even stronger than ever before. Having had some recent insight too has helped a lot and lifted tons of bricks of my shoulder and it made me delighted to know that people are still around even if it doesn't seem like it. Even just knowing that, has made such a huge difference.