Friday, December 10, 2010
Oh man how I hate changes, I hate having to follow a new routine, having to change ways of doing things, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. So many thoughts running through my head right now, things I need to wrap my head around again first, I know they make perfectly sense, they are good for the creatures involved, they are just not good for my mental well being right now...how is that for selfish? I know it will only take a day to get used to and a day to figure it all out, but the thought process of all the little issues I see is just totally overwhelming. Oh how I hate changes. In reality it is not a big deal, because what are a few open gates and closed gates here or there, or a donkey there and another one over there? Really what does it matter? Wonder why our brain does things like that too us? Why do things that really have nothing to do with me, bother me so much and through me for such a loop? Why does this make me now anxious and nervous? I just hate new things, even if it's old new arranged, it's new to me and creates chaos in my head......argh! Where is that friggin' off button?