Woo hoo! It's been a long time since I can actually say I feel good, actually I feel great, doesn't mean things in my life have changed and are exactly the way I want them to be, nothing is ever perfect, but I am good with me. I feel good today about having applied to the job I talked about yesterday, funny thing too, that if I want something really really bad, I have no problem going after it and doing so without my " normal" anxiety and reservations. I guess there weren't or aren't too many things in life that I really wanted or want, and unfortunately a few of the things I went after kind of turned out not the way I hoped for, maybe that's why my reservation for new things is so high, who knows, but I leave that for another entry one day.
I feel good today about about being the friend I want to be to one of my friends, without any kind of thoughts but concern and care and love, and therefore getting help, support and understanding with my issues. I feel good about trying to deal with my issues, not just with the help of my dear Janice but by myself, because everybody who knows me knows I don't have much patience for myself when it comes to those things, and I try to help along on my own and speed things up, not always an easy thing to do as it gets very frustrating when it doesn't go the way I want it to progress, but i feel different about it right now, more relaxed and not so anxious about finding ways to cope, maybe it is as simple as that? Again who knows. But as right now I am good! Actually very good!