Description of me by KAT

About 21/2 years ago, I met this close friend of a friend for the first time and her remarks about me were : childlike, clingy,afraid of being left behind, there is pain in her life that if it doesn't get handled a certain way it will never go away. WOW, that was a shocker to be found out like that in such a short time. Ever since Kat said that about me I know how right she was about everything, it's not that I didn't knew it, I didn't know that others see it like that. The clingy part is less a clinging physical to something or someone, it's more emotionally, I do get these frantic episodes of being left alone and abandoned, but given my experiences as a child/teenager/adult it is understandable why I feel like that. Not quite sure how to explain this, it's like deadly seperartion anxiety with certain people, whether they leave for a moment or a short time or a long while. It's like a feeling that if they leave there will be nothing left of me and that's a horrible feeling. Well I must have grown up a little bit because in the beginning of last October I was left behind by a very dear and close and new friend. Someone I felt an instant connection with, someone who could cry with you, laugh with you, someone you could have a very close intimate relationship with, and as fast as it began as fast it came to a halt, no reason, no rhyme, just nothing. Days turned to weeks and weeks turned to months and somehow I was able to handle it, somehow I knew that it would be ok and it was ok, doesn't mean I didn't miss our conversations and time together, but it was ok. I didn't panic, I didn't try anything I could try to stop it from happening, it just went down the way it went down. And I was just fine. Somehow I knew that we were still and always will be connected no matter what happens and that was pretty much a first for me.
So as it goes, the time passed and all of a sudden there the friend was again, back after a trip to Europe to visit some family, and very banged up and pretty much in pain after a horrible accident involving a car and truck before Christmas. It's gonna be a long road to recovery but it will be nice to be back in each others life for support and fun. Glad you are back. And I hope you are feeling better very soon.