Slightly confused?

Ok part of me is once a again at a total loss for words and saddened still by past events, the outcome and just events as recent as yesterday and then the other part of me just wants to be rambling on like a raving lunatic and just get everything out of my head and of my chest, but then where to begin..and once again...the problem is with focus and thought collection, let's just say it's a very troubling and difficult time and some things might be bigger than we anticipated and I am glad I am not the only one without a paddle up "Shitscreek" lol, I guess we go with the flow on this one ..lol let us ride out the waves....