need daily reminders of where you have been and where you are now, no matter how stuck you are right now, you aren't where you were a while ago and you are not where you want or need to be, you just are.
So on Tuesday I made a renewed commitment to myself, for no other reasons but my very own. I signed up for a National Challenge hosted by one of my favourite TV shows, well we will see how it goes....so far I am pumped, despite the crummy day today. :) So that is progress right there to earn me a star on my progress chart lol.
But so despite this happy, cheerleading kind of pep talk to myself, there are also emotions stirred up inside of me of which I am not so proud of and which are anything but positive, e.g there are somethings that went on at the last meeting at this particular group that pissed me off to no end, but like my usual self, I soak it all up and work through it afterwards in my own way, one of the disadvantages I think of being an introvert, that I have to mull things over first, to find what I really want to say, at the very moment it is happening it just stirs up an emotion without any concrete thoughts, but wait till I have had time to think about it and how I felt at that moment...I am still waiting for the day when those words come to me right in that very moment and will just open my mouth right there and then. Just then world watch out.....!