For crying out loud!

Geez, for crying out loud, just give it up! Short of selling my soul to the devil and yes I have come close and maybe I already have sold parts of it, this is like chasing the invisible phantom of something that doesn't exist.....you know the kind of thing you heard about but never really seen, so you're not quiet sure if it could be real but you try to get it anyway....well when is enough enough? Not that I haven't tried and looked high and low, indeed very low places to find it....but still nothing....I am running out of time, maybe less than I was willing to give myself. Just another thing up in the air....oh well....who really gives a shit anyway?