Some things

Some things are just way too personal to be talked about with anybody, and I really mean anybody. Not that I wouldn't like to get things of my chest and out in the open, but I am just having a really hard time, no I don't have the capacity to talk about certain things pertaining to me. Not even with my special friend J., I am not sure why I have such a block with this at all times, I just wish it wasn't such a big deal to me and I wouldn't be so obsessive about it. Some days are better than others, but when I hit a not so good day I am just freaking out over it and become very anxious. I wish it would stop being so important to me.