Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Today I am so manic it's not funny anymore, it's such a change from my usual self. For days I have these moods of being elated and hyperactive, and yet the other sides of being me are still so much part of it too. It's like having uncontrollable energy and no outlet to get rid of it. It's driving me crazy. It's almost worse than feeling like the "normal" me, the one I have been for so many years, well almost my entire life. It's kind of lifting the fog from over your eyes to see your life clearly, but not having the tools and know-how to do anything about it or deal with it. It feels just weird.