Right or wrong decision?

Today I was prepared to hear my second "life scentence" , (the first one was handed out a while ago, but that's a whole other entry), but instead I was given the choice to make a life altering decision, if it was the right or wrong decision only time will tell. Sometimes there are decisions to make where the points for it are in balance with the points against it, this was one of those situations, so I am aware that I am taking a huge risk, I just have to be very aware of the slightest change and hope to get help in time. I am not quite sure why I made this decision, since I know the consequences and what might happen and how painful and scary it will be. But obviously that is a chance I was willing to take and the time without it will be such a relief in itself, so it is worth taking the risk and maybe I will be lucky and not have a relapse. That would be wonderful...