Old Crap

Why does old crap keep coming back ever so often? When will it stop? No matter how far one has come or believes one is "better" the old crap keeps finding a way back into life to mess things up. And obviously one is not strong enough yet to not let it back in. Why are the nagging little voice or the debilitating statements still find a tiny little thing to grab on to and blossom into bigger things. Why is it so hard to accept some things and why should you accept them, if they are a life necessity? How do  you tell your brain that you will be fine without it, or is it even in the brain? It could be the heart or gut too. With certain things it's easier to talk yourself out of it, but with this one, I don't know, there is too much proof that this belief is right and true, so how do you kick this one to the curb? And funny too that in the end, no matter what you do or have done, it all comes down and back to this one thing, over and over again. How sad.